Next Part of My Life--.

Sunday, May 20, 2007;

wah. on fri i kena sorethroat a little. then sat really sorethroat liao. but at night became cough. then today, got a little fever, sorethroat and cough liao. sian big time. and i got chem test tml. tues econs test i think i tml after my chem then study.. haix.

watched spidey-3 on fri. was good! haha actually i not a fan of the show, but i wan to meet my my girls. thus i decided to go. and its been such a long time i go to town..haha. like sua gu!

on sat, there's college day. our perf was okay, but the dizi ppl (we) not good.aiyo. lao hong like big time? haha. after our perf i went to airport to find the girls! hahaa. after that went tm to eat pastamania!! simply love vongole! wahahahahaaa =] and that's the time my sorethroat gone lor and it turn to cough only. take neoprints! heheh~

and we planned our 5 day hols schedule! lols.

Sports day -- badminton, ice skating?

indoor day -- liling house play mahjong, bridge, PS, cook

town day -- shop!! =DD

and 2 other random days -- picnic? sentosa? =D

i seriously cant wait for my holidays. it will be a mugging season, but at least i get to see my friends more regularly (i hope) hahaha. =D

but. i feeling horrible right now. chem, econs test, GP common test. feeling unwell. adds all together = stress.

stuck on you 7:30 PMY

Sunday, May 13, 2007;

shagged. like totally. my body cant work the way my brain wanted to. i kip falling asleep. like when im determined to study my chem on sat, i fall asleep immediately and the time i wake up, im going off for mother's day dinner. sunday. woke up at 9am and did my maths b4 i went for tuition. came back at around 4 plus, slp again and wake up for my dinner. in the end i still havent did my line spectra and my GP hw. sian sian sian. i think i lag of slp big time this wk. then replenish my slp on wkends. this is so deadly. duno happy or not that my chem test has postponed. nxt nxt wk there's only me taking the test in the class. oh well. my life. i cant wait for hols... i wanna go out... i wanna feel free from schools...

stuck on you 10:07 PMY

Thursday, May 10, 2007;

since my blog cant post chinese words.. i shall translate. haha. this is one of the phrases on our CO board in CO room.

3 days b4 SYF: Bronze is yesterday

2 days b4 SYF: Silver is today

1 day b4 SYF: Gold is tomorrow

on that day os SYF: After today, every year is gold.

LOL. yah may look silly to u, but it does give mi motivation whenever i turn my head and look at the board during practice. lols. sad or happy? i duno. lols.

lots of scolding, lots of sweat and lots of effort put in for today's SYF.

though Mr wong scold us a lot in the past, but if we do reflect on what he says, it is actually true. he just always put his words in a harsh way that shoot ppl real hard. 2 days b4 our SYF he still criticise us using one word, "lan". he says that we're like a sine curve. the start of practise our standard is a COP-bronze standard. only after consecutive practise in the same day, we will have a gold standard. and mr wong says that J1s are not serious. and the J1s posted in the forum saying they are practising hard and making time out for CO. but arent the J2s too? haix. and on that day he said this, it is indeed true that SOME of the J1s are sitting around and chit chatting and took a long time to tune instruments. but i feel that after the harsh words by mr wong, our president should encourage us, and not merely say that you agree with mr wong that blah blah blah and REPEATING his words. its wasting our time. the last batch of president is good, as he says our bad points but after that he will encourage us. hey, that's the right way to move us on. Discouragement kills passion.

and on that day of East zone concert, mr wong oso scolded us like ZZZ. i was quite discouraged after the perf alrdy, but he scold us and made me even more worse. that day i was pretty pissed as i put in effort alrdy, but im a beginner and seriously needs more time. he scolded us about how slack we are, no sense of urgency, late coming, responsibility of our own belongings, etc. yah i was pretty pissed. but after that i reflected and to think i actually agree to what he says. and not only me who realised and reflected.

today. everything happened so fast. woke up at 5.30am, went to sch early to warm up. then 7.15am bring instruments and change. 9am tuning room. and we practised one last time b4 waiting for ur turn. While waiting, watched MJC from outside TV. enjoyed the song. LOL big time. 10am, in we go. and my fingers are shaking. LOl. so i tried to sway and move so that it is not obvious. hahahaa. not our best, but its good. mr wong told us that it is at least a silver. but we think its a silver-bronze standard. a lot a lot of flaws. though not huge ones, but listen already is really can make ur heart beat even faster coz u are feeling scared for them. scared that they beat wrong, play wrong. esp the percussion and pluck string section. its like wadever Guo taught they forgot. haha. but i think its nervous. and it is normal and alright to feel nervous! haha.

i still rmb the time i reach home on CCA days, the stress that is always there and gets heavier by the day but i cant share and talk it out coz its just so difficult, the effort i've put in during practise AND at home, the super happy feeling when conductor says its a gold standard, the super sad feeling when tr says our CO standard is "lan", the irritating feeling of repeating of the 2 songs over and over again, the emo-ness when everything we play is not right, the tiredness of bringing heavy instruments and carrying stacks of chair to and fro audi, not forgetting gossips with piggy. woo lah lah~ i think our bluetooth is STRONG. lols! i thank ppl, especially piggy and aik ying, for the encouragements, for telling us where we need to improve together, and all. seriously, thank u all for making my time spent in CO happy. today, we had tried our best i believe, so ppl, lets gracefully accept our... silver.

stuck on you 10:00 PMY